What I Want

Today I'm consumed with the thought of what I want. Some may consider that to be self centered. I have spent decades trying to deny my wants and put the wants of others first. I have done this with my schedule. Often going and doing things I did not want for others. I did this for my boys just last weekend. I have done this with my money. I have denied myself purchases for the sake of the Kingdom of God and my family.

Today is different. I have been mulling this over in my mind for the past 24 hours. I have decided what I want is a big priority. It is my aim today. What I want is my pressing priority. Don't hate me. Don't judge me. Is it sin for me to pursue what I want? Is it wrong to be led by my wants?

So what is it that I want? Simply put to please God. I want to please Him in all areas of my life. I want to please Him as His child lost in the wonder of worship in private and public. I want to sit with Him alone just to get to know Him. I want to encounter Him in the pages of my Bible. I want to get so caught up in private prayer I lose track of time and space. Lost in the wonder of worship. Enjoying Him. Relentlessly pursuing Him. Basking in His presence. All with the desire to please Him.

I want to please Him with my family I want to be a good husband to Brenda and be more concerned with her needs than my own. I want to love her and express that love more now than I did when we dated in college. I also want to be a good father. I want my boys to know I love them and cheer them on as they follow their dreams. I want to be there for them when they need me and to give them the freedom to follow God's call on their lives.

I want to please my Father in ministry. Whether I preach to a few dozen or a few hundred I want to please Him by preaching prayerfully, powerfully and passionately. I want to be consumed with His truth and the desire to communicate that truth under His divine revelation and unction. I want to faithfully shepherd people. I want to lead courageously as I devote myself to following God's directions. I want to tirelessly labor for revival all in an effort to please Him.

I want to please Jehovah. I want to obey Him. I want to follow Him. I want to seek Him. I want to know Him. I want to honor Him. I want to glorify Him. I want to remain faithful to my last breath. Even then, when the end is coming and I'm about to step out of this realm into eternity, I still want to please Him.