He Makes Me Lie Down

 It was a grueling ministry season. God opened the door and strengthened me to preach or teach 16 times in the span of a little over the past two weeks. Part of that included a preaching trip to Lubbock. Add to that the other preaching and teaching times through the summer until yesterday afternoon it all caught up with me. The traveling. The constant prayer for the next message. The passion for the lake baptisms. After lunch yesterday, I needed a nap. 

I thought about Ps 23:2-3, "He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads beside still waters. He restores my soul and guides me in the path of righteousness for His name's sake."

The human body was not designed to live in the fast lane perpetually. God created us to need sleep. We cannot function without it. It is the constant reminder that we are not God because He never gets tired nor sleeps. We may go hard for several days, weeks, or even months. There will come a time when the body needs to recover. 

We see same the principle in other areas. Cattle horses cannot go hard every single day. They have to recover at some point. You cannot run a machine at maximum RPMs long before it malfunctions. The same is true for the human body. God made me lie down for a nap. Friends wanted us to go to Amarillo for lunch, which would have meant an extra hour driving time there and back for us. We had to decline. A nap did more for me than I can put into words. It refreshed, revived, and reenergized me for two more times of teaching to round out the day. 

This is exactly why God created the Sabbath. A day for rest and worship. It was meant to be a day to rest and recover before starting another week of work. The Sabbath day is regularly broken. Some have no choice because of work schedules. Others fill the day with recreational activities, kids ball games, work around the house, and many other things besides worship. Do this long enough and it will compromise spiritual, emotional, and physical health. 

The NASU translation of Ps 23:2 uses the phrase, "He makes me lie down." God has His ways to get us to slow down. To recuperate. Some people feel guilty for resting. Like constantly being busy is a bade of honor. The Bible certainly speaks against laziness in the book of Proverbs. It also speaks to resting. There must be balance. In extreme cases, I've seen people hospitalized which forced them to rest. 

I actually felt convicted that we were planning too many things for the church. We canceled two events for this month. I could tell people were tired. They needed a break. Brenda and I needed a break. It was a fast paced summer with things happening nearly every week. Once this past Sunday ended, it signaled the end of the summer season and the ramping up of the fall season with back to school and all that comes with it. Other days of rest will be needed. The rest refuels us to be even more productive. LET'S GO!

I Heard Her Last Heartbeat

 God called a dear sister in Christ home today. A fantastic wife, mother, follower of Jesus, and talented singer. With her husband and kids, they travelled all over the United States leading people in worship. She battled cancer and after months of treatment and excruciating pain, she slowly drifted into heaven while her husband lay beside her in the bed listening to her heart beat head on her chest. 

Of course there are the same old questions why. Why did God take such a useful person in the advancement of His kingdom? Why did God call her her home to Him leaving a grieving husband and devastated children? Why did God not answer prayers for her physical healing, even though we know she is healed now? 

I hurt for her husband. A gifted musician, song writer, and worship leader. His world is wrecked. Those are his words. I know he is not the first widower in the history of the world. It still does not make it any easier. Somehow all the church cliches and Bible verses ring a little hollow in his grief. I know God is near to those who broken hearted and saves those crushed in spirit. [Ps 34:18] I know God works all things for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. [Rom 8:28]. I know that in Jesus we have peace, but in the world we have tribulation. We are to take courage because Jesus has overcome the world. [Jn 16:33] I know precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of His godly ones. [Ps 116:15] None of truths take away that a middle aged wife and mother is tragically taken from her husband and children. I know she would not return if she had the chance. It still does take away the vice grip of grief. 

All of those things are emphatically and eternally true. It still does not take the pain away from a devoted husband losing his best friend and spouse. I hurt for him and the children. Outside his home, life goes on. People hustle and bustle in frenzied activities of back to school, work, start of football, volleyball, band, and cross country practices. Inside his home are rivers of tears. There is anger and shock that suddenly she is gone forever. No more gentle kisses, hugs, morning breakfasts, movie nights, date nights, or casual conversations. Those things are just memories to cherish. 

I feel both guilty and grateful that I still have Brenda to go home to tomorrow evening. I still have the chance to tell her I'm madly in love with her. Still love to spend time with her doing just about anything. I still get to chase and serve God with her by my side. I kissed her goodbye near the curb of our front yard yesterday morning. Those are blessings my brother will never enjoy again with is deceased bride. It reminds me not to take Brenda for granted. 

I know God will sustain this devastated man of God in his grief. God will help him keep living one day at a time. God will help him write new songs and guide him to be able to sing them authentically. My brother has some very hard days ahead of him. He is in the weeping for a night. I pray God usher him into the joy that comes in the morning. [Ps 30:5]