From as far back as I can remember I have always been a dreamer. In my childhood it was to be an NFL player. I even practiced writing my autograph in classes over and over again. I played football with myself when none of my friends wanted to play. The dream changed as I got older. I still wanted to play football, but settled for playing in college. I also began dreaming of becoming a writer. I carried that dream through high school and just before I entered college.
The dream changed again when God called me to preach. I still remember the day I was on a 4,000 acre ranch with a good friend when I felt like God dropped a big dream in me. One I've carried for over 30 years. A dream I've shared with only a very select group of people. A dream so outlandish that most would never believe me. So I kept it to myself.
Life hit hard. Ministry was hard. Many times I felt like a horse chasing a carrot dangling in front of him that he chases futilely but never gets to taste. As time passed the dream faded. It was still there, just not as vivid as it once had been. Then I hit middle age and the dream still had not come to fruition. It was painful to even think about it. One day I quit dreaming. It was easier. Less painful and disappointing to give up on the dream and just do my duty.
A couple of decades ago I stumbled on a book called The Dream Giver. I read the book in literal tears as the dream was rekindled. I marked that book up and down front to back and made notations in the margins. I read it again and reread it a couple of years later. Once again life and ministry hit hard. The dream faded again and just like before I gave up on it. Only this time, I gave up on it for good. Or at least I thought.
Until this morning. Let me backtrack. Weeks ago Brenda and I were in Mardell Christian Bookstore. I always go to the bargain section first to peruse the titles. You never know when you might discover a treasure at a bargain price. I did on that day and did not even realize it. It was a book written by Jerry Falwell. The title caught up my eye. How to Build Dynamic Faith. It was only $5. I put it on a shelf and forgot about it as I read other titles in subsequent weeks when we got home. Earlier this week I rediscovered it and took it from the shelf to read. Turns out the book is a 31-day devotional. This morning the reading hit me right between the eyes. It was about God planting dreams in our hearts. It was about the slowness but steadiness of those dreams becoming reality. My pulse quickened as I read. Falwell shared a story about a dream God gave Him and how it took 28 years for the dream to be realized. It did come true through lots of prayer and hard work.
God resurrected my dead dream this morning. I could not fight the excitement. The hope and passion rekindled. The dream burned as bright and vivid as it ever has before. I told Brenda about the dream and a couple we ate lunch with earlier. I know some of you are on the edge of your seat waiting for me to reveal the dream. Not yet. The time will come.
My counsel to you is if you lost a God given dream, sit before Him today and ask is it over. Maybe it has just been delayed. Maybe it is hope deferred. Don't stop believing. God can make His dreams for us come true. No matter our age or the number of years we wait for it. God is the best dream giver, and He is able to make them come true no matter how outlandish they may seem to others.